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ok... i'm ready to pack my bags and leave my husband... so i went on a 2 mile walk. took me 33 min. that's about 3.63 mph. not too bad. i feel calmer than i did before the walk...
now i'm thinking that i should get a 2nd job on fri and sat nights. i mean, if he doesn't want to spend time with me and has all these other priorities then he won't miss me, right? i should occupy my time with something else and not give him a second thought.... then that money will be my own to do whatever i want... get my hair done, nails done, maybe even save for a personal trainer.
i'm tired of him telling me we don't have money to do anything and i see him take out loans, 401k loan, even my 401k loan so he can have a truck, 4-wheeler, rock-crawler, guns, bullets, etc.
i was with him while he was married to the bottle... now that he's sober...he's married to his toys.
Why am i here?
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1292 kcal
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Tłusz: 70,61g | Białk: 62,25g | Węglo: 99,26g.
Śniadanie: scrambled eggs, cinnamon streusel muffin, bacon. Lunch: bacon, weight watchers yogurt. Obiad: Gonolier Pepperoni Calzone. więcej...
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2381 kcal
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Ćwiczenie:
Ćwiczenia Calisthenics (Ciężkie, np. Pompki) - 5 minut, Chodzenie (Ćwiczenia) - 5.5/kph - 33 minut, Prace Domowe - 40 minut, Odpoczywanie - 14 godziny i 42 minut, Spanie - 8 godziny. więcej...
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I am so sorry that you are having to deal with this. I have no advice, other than to do what will make you happy. I will be praying for you.
19 cze 10 przez użytkownika: ctlss
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I am so sorry for your pain...I have no words to offer,but,I can be a shoulder. PM me anytime...
19 cze 10 przez użytkownika: candyann
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Thanks guys! I feel a little bit better... we talked...but it was more like he yelled and i listened... now i'm just in deep thought. i just "miss" him wanting to be with me. Sometimes I think he makes excuses to get away to do this errand or that errand or yardwork or helping his mom just to get away from me. I'm feeling very unattractive and he "does" have a problem that I had gained weight. He always said he didn't want me to gain weight.
I mean, I didn't plan to gain weight. Who does? You get older and your metabolism slows down. It's not like he's skinny because he has gained 60lbs since we got married and I don't care.. (I care more about the effects on his health) not his looks.
anyways, i know he won't admit to me that i'm unattractive... but i know him. the intimacy is gone... the affection is barely noticable... i try so hard to plan a date night or something but i just don't get the feedback i'm looking for.
I thought 40 year old men were in their prime... why is my husband so non-sexual?!
Wait, i knew i could ramble...but I'm really rambling into the TMI category.. sorry.
anyways, i'll make it. :):) Thank you guys for being nice! :) It means a lot.
19 cze 10 przez użytkownika: Xana24
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This is a place for you to safely vent. No one is going to say anything, or condemn you in any way. So if you feel lik venting, vent away! It is also a place for you to get support and motivation for your diet, and to find a friendly shoulder, as Candyann said.
19 cze 10 przez użytkownika: ctlss
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