Dziennik Xana24, 03 lip 10

Xana, don't let that deter you. I spent the last 3 years avoiding my OWN pool, because I didn't want anyone seeing me in my suit. What a waste. As for the hot dogs and hamburgers, just eat one, and take yourself some veggies for muchning on. Your hubby probably doesn't think you look like a fat cow, he most likely thinks you are beautiful!! So go and have a goodtime. I am at 202.8 pounds and I WILL BE SWIMMING this weekend. If someone doesn't like how I look in my suit, then they simply don't have to look. If these are truly your friends, they won't think a thing about it. True friends know that your real beauty is on the inside! So go and have some fun and get some extra exercise at the same time! Just one more thing, you are beautiful!! Don't let an anyone else tell you any differently! 

Thanks so much! I just got off the ph crying to my husband... he told me not to start my diet again until Tues and that just really made me feel terrible. I know my friends won't care... i gained my 5lbs back from vacation and I'm just feeling miserable right now. Thanks so much for your kind words. I really needed to hear that. My husband says I'm not "that" fat but the intimacy is gone and I had to beg for some on our vacation... Finally "it" happened the day we were leaving. He made a comment that if I were 130 lbs he would keep me locked up in the house (as a compliment) and it made me feel terrible that he doesn't feel that way about me now. So he doesn't want me to diet because i think it ruins his plans... i shouldn't say that... rambling about what I think is the truth will get me in trouble. Anyhow... I'll enjoy myself but I'm still doing my intense 30 min workout right now after i enter this, taking a shower and then I'll join them when I'm good and ready... Thanks for being so sweet! 

Even though you are trying to lose weight, you still have to live your life (and your husband too). It's summer, he wants to get out and have fun. I understand how you feel, but at the same time you can't expect your husband to stay home will you lose all the weight. You shouldn't any way. Go and have fun. Watch your portions and be proud of the steps you are taking to get healthy. You deserve it. 

xana, the only person you should do this for is YOU!! Do it because it makes you feel better, both physically and mentally. Not for any other reason. Perhaps your husband feels insecure and thinks that if you lose the weight, he will lose you! As for the BBQ, go and eat what you want, but in moderation! Skip the high cal stuff. Eat either burger or hot dog, or even both if you want, just watch the calories. Get yourself a small calorie counter that you can keep with you, and check it inconspicuously when you aren't sure about what you are eating. Also a small notebook to record wht you eat. If people don't understand you trying to get healthy, then that is their problem! I am sure that there will be plenty of good, healthy food for you to eat, and following your eating plan will make you feel better and in control!! And exercising first, is a great idea, it boosts the metabolism and keeps it stoked for hours after the work out. Have fun, and quite fretting over the small stuff. If the hubby doesn't appreciate your efforts, well that's okay, you are doing this for YOU!!  

My treadclimber keeps getting an error message after a couple minutes... ok... I'm gonna get in shower anyways, get my bathing suit on... have fun, swim, eat in moderation, and try another w/o later tonight. I feel better... just started freaking out earlier. I can do this. Thanks both of you so much! 

Of course you can!! Have a great time!! And be confident!! Confidence is VERRRRRRY sexy, so go strut your stuff!!  

I can't believe you look like a cow! No way ...Do the best you can holidays are for having fun ...enjoy yourself work smarter not harder have a great 4th!