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I have accepted that some days I will feel more energetic than others. But wow, I was very very tired today. I think possibly because some of the current stressful events that I was dealing with are now beginning to settle down a bit, and though I fought through it, maybe it's left me a bit drained.
I still did my morning workout today (swearing like a sailor throughout), but I am happy I did it even though I was tired. I did my best.
It was also a busy work day, and I felt I was dragging all day.
I found myself craving the bad stuff, but I know it's just due to the "uch" feeling and it's just second nature for me to grab food to make myself feel better. This time however, I stayed alert to it, and did not give in. Especially since I did not do an evening exercise, I can't afford to give in. It took a few hours, but that wave of craving passed...for now.
It also helps to see the change in the scale, however slight, to see that it's working like I had hoped.
The biggest challenge I know will be coming in the next week. I know myself and how I have failed before. Somehow my mind gets tired of this. I mean, at first I'm all like..."Something positive, working hard, making changes...all nice and new!" In a way, by the very nature of being new... I initially succeed with a healthy lifestyle as that "newness" distracts from the stress or pain I feel. But eventually, the "newness" affect wears off, and and I slip back into my old ways of using food for comfort, which in turn makes me tired and fat, and the circle continues.
The only difference this time is I am aware of of this behavior. Ironicially I can now see everything in retrospect...just IN TIME for the present and future. So I should be able to mentally tackle this. Not sure how yet to do it as it's not like I can rid myself of pain and stress in a few days, but while I work on that mental aspect, I can find something else new (A new book, start doodling cartoons again (maybe about this experience), do something creative, whatever) to distract from any internal crap that I previously used food to soothe.
Well, I think that's it for now. I actually have worked a very long day, and should have eaten dinner earlier, but I do have a rather healthy one planned so I should be okay.
OH, and that's the other thing that has helped me this time. Planning on what I will be having keeps me on track. I can think about it all day and get psyched about it....even if it's not yummy bad for me food. LOL.
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2352 kcal
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Tłusz: 77,36g | Białk: 103,01g | Węglo: 334,19g.
Śniadanie: BUTTER LT W/CANOLA OIL, Organic Lowfat 1% Milk, Sourdough Bread, Cheerios with Whole Grain, Almonds. Lunch: Bananas, Almonds. Obiad: Green Beans (Canned), Lean Turkey Burger Patties, Corn On The Cob with Butter. Przekąski/Inne: Slow Churned Vanilla Bean Ice Cream, Cheerios with Whole Grain, Organic Lowfat 1% Milk, Vinegar (Cider), Cucumber (with Peel), Creamy Peanut Butter, Celery, HRSHY MD 16C CHOC SYP BP, Eddy the yeti banana blast. więcej...
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3539 kcal
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Ćwiczenie:
Prace Domowe - 1 godzina, Praca w Biurze Siedząca - 10 godziny, Trening Kondycyjny - 20 minut, Jazda na Rowerze (Spokojna) - <16/kph - 1 godzina, Odpoczywanie - 4 godziny i 40 minut, Spanie - 7 godziny. więcej...
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