Dziennik suechru, 17 lis 10

The scale hasn't moved much in the last month or so and I'm going to be honest - that bothers me a little. I know I haven't been perfect with this but I figured I wouldn't have held steady so much. I think part of it is my body's been under too much stress. I also think it's possible I have some extra muscle. I'm not going to let it stress me too much but I would like to be down 5 lbs by the time I wear that dress next month.

I am officially out of that class from hell thanks to a huge assist from the dean of the program. I found that out this morning and it was like a giant weight lifted off my shoulders. I have two classes done already for the semester (A- and a B) and I'm somewhere around a B+/A average in finance. I'm a little behind in there too but with only this to focus on I'll be caught up in no time.

I did register for next semester but I really don't know what I'm actually taking since I signed up for a bunch of classes with the thought that I'd drop at least one as long as I'm still working. (Things are still kind of uncertain for next year. I'm hopeful but there's no guarantees about anything past February.) I'm trying to be calm and patient. There's nothing more I can do right now than the best I can do in my finance class and keep giving it my all at work.

I'm tired. I know I should probably do some exercise tonight (and I do have a wii) but honestly, I'm just zonked today so I'm sitting here watching Golden Girls on DVD. 80s sitcoms are comfort tv for me.

I'm going for a massage at some point over the next few days, just not sure when to best schedule it. I want to do a hot stone one this time, I think. Although, honestly, a big long nap is what I want most right now.

Affirmations for today:
1) Sometimes winning isn't finishing first. Sometimes winning is just finishing.

2) There's a very big difference between slowing down and quitting

3) Change your thoughts, change your habits, change your mind, change your body, change your life.