Okay I officially think I am hitting peri-menopause! I looked here...
http://www.earlymenopause.com/symptoms.htmand I have about 80% of those symptoms, and my sister started around age 40 so genetically it is possible.
This makes sense for a lot of my symptoms, as well as it being so freakin hard to lose weight. Add to that PCOS and diabetes and food intolerances - and I can see why I am fighting an uphill battle with my weight. In an odd way it is kind of soothing to grasp that it is not all my fault that I can't lose very fast. I guess I can blame emotional meltdowns on it too which should be handy LOL
Thank you all for your supportive and caring replies to my melt down two days ago. They really helped!
Also helped was going for a walk in our local gardens, and checking out the newly rebuilt container mall in our broken inner city. Getting sunshine helped too I think! And not being around stinkin party food!!! I had my normal suppressed hunger thankfully yesterday, so glad to be back to normal!
So thank you my friends - you helped me get through an emotional morning. Hugs and love to you all!!!!