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Morning FS friends
Still muddling along. Figured I'd update last weeks weigh in no matter how ugly it was. Avoiding doing so doesn't change the result. This weeks is a bit better.
Would love to say I'm staying on track, but that's not the case at all. Finding now that it's getting dark earlier, evenings stretch like an eternity. Going to bed at 8PM isn't an option though much as it calls to me 24/7.
Am fighting with carbs and peanut butter still. Much as I think I've got a handle on things, I find that I don't. 60 years of turning to food for comfort especially now, is a really hard behaviour to break. Am I hungry? No. Empty? Yes. It is a vast soul emptiness, one devoid of anything remotely resembling joy, purpose, future plans, hopes and dreams that is my life at the moment. I've always lived a purpose driven life so limbo is a weird place to be until I find purpose (and the will to execute it) again. Almost a case of hurry up and wait...but for what? This bleakness needs to be overcome. Thanks to my the furbabies for providing structure to my days. Dreading winter though as both the furries and I benefit from our daily walks.
It would likely be a bit easier if I had any family, or even a social network or a job. But I don't. Where retirement was full of opportunities and plans it now looms ahead - alone and adrift. Not stable enough at the moment to volunteer either as tears come unprovoked and the last thing seniors in long term care need is a middle aged woman bawling.
Suck it up buttercup.
This too will pass.
Rebuild, learn, grow, adapt.
One day at a time.
PS Morticia, still need to post pics of my two ancient cats. Mayhaps soon.
Over and out
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70,0 kg
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